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About me
For most of my life, so much about my existence was a secret; the page was often the only place where I felt safe to tell the truth.
My first book, Never Make A Sound, is the story of how my secret life began—as a child trying to escape from pain when no escape was possible. During those years and beyond, writing became not only an act of expression, but a survival strategy, helping to reshape the narrative that had been thrust upon me.
When Never Make A Sound was published, I still carried a heavy sense of shame. It was the residue of years of self-blame and a distorted self-image shaped by experiences of neglect, trauma, and childhood abuse.
At the time of release, I was hesitant to talk about the book and my story. It still felt too raw, too revealing.
But then, I started hearing from readers—many who told me they had devoured the book in a single sitting—about how much it resonated with them.
They were moved not by the facts of my life, but by my willingness to be honest about it, to make the sound I had been too afraid to make for so long.
Their reactions made me realise that my voice mattered, and that by telling my story, I was giving others permission to tell theirs.
My story is not unique; there are many who have experienced deep internalized shame, convinced that they are somehow defective or broken. Writing can be a powerful antidote.
My goal is to help others experience this same kind of liberation.
--Fanen